I do what I want

I've been a bad blogger lately, sorry to all my readers. Things have been busy; lots of socializing and such. We had a pool party last Saturday. Tons of fun in the hot, burning, blazing sun. It's been unbearably hot in Austin lately, record high temps all summer long. Makes me wish I lived in the Pacific Northwest!
I have been doing a lot of thinking about what happened with my infertility journey. I'm finally coming to terms with everything and it's great. I don't feel bitter about it or angry about my miscarriage. Things happen for a reason and I truly believe the universe will not give us things we can't deal with. So, I'm dealing and getting back to my life. The life that makes me happy with my husband and my friends. Chris and I will have a family one day; I know that for a fact and because of that I can rest easier. We have had many discussions in the last few weeks about the future and our plans. What we should do to have a family. Basically, I have decided that I will continue to see my acupuncturist and take things as they come. If by next summer nothing has happened naturally, then we'll start exploring other options. We have discussed the possibility of adoption. It's something I want to learn more about. Domestic vs. international, open vs. closed, agency vs. private????? Sooooo much information, where do I begin??? I would love input from any of you out there that know about adoption because I know little to nothing and need to know more. Maybe in year I'll want to do another IVF? I can't even fathom the idea of that right now, but things change with time, so who knows. What I do know is that I'm going to spend a lot of time enjoying my fabulous life instead of worrying about the unknown and the future. I'm going to focus on the positive instead of the negative. I'm gonna have a drink and the occasional smoke when I fee like it. What I have realized is that this infertility thing has been defing me for the last year. It's been my main focus and that's not healthy. Nothing is good when it consumes your life. So, I'm gonna let it go and just see what happens.
First up on the fun agenda is Vegas! The hub and I are going with some friends over labor day weekend. Chris and I have been to Vegas quite a few times with and without company. It's always a better trip with more poeple, so this one should be great. We are stayin on Freemont St. this time at the Golden Nugget. We thought we would try something different this trip since we have always stayed on the strip. Plus, the G-nugg just had a huge renovation. Nothing compares to Vegas, such a sensory overload. I can't wait!