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I'm usually in great spirits on Fridays since the weekend is almost here. I wish that were the case today. I'm feeling overly emotional and blah. Feeling sorry for myself. Whenever a wave of this comes on I just ride it until it passes. I think I have every right to wallow in self pity. I'm ready for this journey to be over.
Whenever I feel this way all the things that people, friends and family have said to me over the last year start popping in my head. The thoughtless ugly diarrhea words that spewed from their mouths. This is very delicate situation, so I understand that people don't know what to say and love to offer up their opinions and thoughts on what we should do. Please, please think before you speak. Don't tell me to relax, put my legs in the air after sex or go on vacation. Those things don't work when you have fertility issues. Please, stop offering up the option of adoption. I think adoption is a great thing, but we are not there yet. Don't act like you know exactly what you would do if you were in my situation. Cause, honestly, you have absolutely no idea how you would act. I had my plan on what I was willing to do to have a baby and man how that plan has changed. Yes, I'm taking hormones, and yes I know the possible side effects. So, please don't tell me your opinion on them, I don't care what you think. Take a look at all the things you put in your body that could cause cancer and illness (cigarettes, alcohol drugs!!). C'mon people think before you speak.
Woo, it felt good to get that off my chest.