2020 A.

We are officially at our new house! Chris and our friend Greg moved all our furniture over on Monday. I wanted to hire movers, but Chris was completely against it, so he did all the work. I am much to delicate to do a bunch of heavy lifting. The first two nights at our new digs have been OK. I love the new house, I just hate the transition. All the clutter and boxes. Trying to figure out where to put everything and then trying to remember where I put it. We had a garage sale last Saturday and I thought we got rid of a bunch of our things, but it seems we still have so much stuff. I know it will all come together over the weekend, but right now it's making me feel a little nuts. Clutter in my living space = clutter in my head.
The dogs seem to be adjusting. Herb refused to eat treats yesterday morning, but her hunger strike is over. She ate her treats like a champ this morning. Peaches was very nervous on Monday; shaking and puking, but is back to her normal and crazy self. We moved one kitty over last night, Dr. Sake, and she is not doing so hot. Cats don't do so well with change and she's been hiding under the bed. I'm sure she will be better once we move her partner in crime, Tony, over tonight.
I'll post some new pics of 2020 A. next week once we have time to put everything in its place. On a side note, my temps have been coming up:) The new herb seems to be working, so I have been feeling pretty good for the past week. The hub even commented on my new hopeful and patient attitude. The roller coaster seems to be on an upward climb for now.

January 19, 2009

Today was my due date.
I have had a heavy feeling in my chest all day.
Tomorrow will be better.

Wrestlin'

Chris and I went to the movies last night to see "The Wrestler." Holy effing shit it was good. Go see it!

Luteal Phase Defect

My temps are low. I take my basal body temp every morning and they are low. After ovulation they are suppose to move upward into the 98s, but mine don't. My acupuncturist told me that because of my low temps the chances of me becoming and staying pregnant were not good. I'm glad he's honest with me, but that is not what I want to hear. We are trying another herb for 60 days. He said it has helped woman with temperatures like mine in the past. I'm also altering my diet during my luteal phase. No cold foods or drinks. I'm adding curry, lamb, ginger and cinnamon.
I'm pretty sure I have a luteal phase defect. I have been charting my basal body temp since October and it has never been biphasal. I'm discouraged. I feel defeated. What else can I fucking do?
Crack heads give birth to babies daily and here I am charting my fucking temperature every day. Eating lamb??!! It seems so rediculous. Really??
Sometimes I think I'll just go back to the RE and do another IUI or IVF, but then I talk myself out of that, because I want to stick with our natural plan. Ha ha ha ha! Natural plan; sounds so funny to me. I'm at a crossroads and I don't know what to do. I'm angry and sad and feel like total shit! AGAIN!
This damned infertility seems to have gotten the best of me today and I don't feel like trying to dig myself out. I just want to wallow here in self pity for a while. Guess the hub and I will head to India Kitchen to get some lamb and curry for dinner. Maybe we should stop and buy some crack on the way; it seems to work for a lot of women....

Packing and Purging

Chris and I spent NYE at home. I made a nice dinner - steak, mushroom risotto and broccoli. We shared a delicious bottle of Veuve Clicquot. It was a lovely night and the perfect way to welcome a new year.
The rest of our 4 day break was spent packing, purging and cleaning. I am still shocked at the amount of shit we have accumulated over the last 7 years. Some of the stuff is just ridiculous. It feels really good to get rid of all the unnecessary clutter. We are going to have a BIG garage sale. We started moving some boxes and musical equipment. I have started setting up the new kitchen. The cabinet space at the new place is awesome. Chris is doing some touch up painting and we will be ready to move the big stuff over by the 19th. I refuse to help with heavy lifting and hauling shit up and down the stairs; luckily Chris is understanding. He's going to get a few friends to help him. Check out some pics of our new casa.


living room


kitchen


master bedroom and balcony


master bathroom with shower room and jacuzzi tub!


2 sinks!


Office


guest room

The master bathroom makes me so happy. It even has a private toilet room, so I can be showering, and Chris can be pooping, and we can both have privacy! The closet is amazing too, huge, with shoe shelves, so I display my pretties! We are losing a bedroom in the move, but we are gaining things that will make every day life easier. Like me being 4 miles from my job! No more road rage! We are going to be walking distance to a few of our favorite bars. I'm going to be able to walk to 4 of my friends houses. 2nd Street here we come!